I'm scheduled to fight Rock in a rematch from this past March...

Here are some training videos from 1/08/10...

Thank you anonymous poster...

You probably drove me to read a crapload of my old entries.

The girl recently mentioned is the same girl from before, when I went to HBU.

ANYHOW, I've realized that some things have changed for me, but some have most definitely stayed the same.

I thought I would move on from Jess, but I didn't. I really didn't. I tried my damndest, dating other girls, sleeping with other girls. Physically prettier ones at that. Almost 4 years later, where/what has that gotten me? No further away from her.

But the deep-rooted connection that she and I quickly developed really tore me apart. It really fucked me.

I am more composed now, but I realize that my life is a constant struggle, a struggle between lusting for power and wanting to love and be loved. I constantly flip flop between my identities of Kokuryu and a more Superman-like character.

I don't think I can have both.

And the only surefire thing I can do is really be strong for myself, develop myself.

And it kills me that I will not have this woman.

God help me.

I left this blog at 444 posts. We can't have that, so...

I'm gonna self promote my videos some...
At my Youtube channel, you'll find quite a few videos...
So please subscribe, comment, and rate!

Martial Arts


Some grappling videos


Videos such as New Year's Eve 2010's Fireworks (Best FIREWORKS EVER in 10 years!)


Training videos




Please also note that Rock has agreed to fight me in a rematch. Boxing, same as before. It is scheduled for February 5th. So check back here (maybe) and at the Youtube channel for training updates.

I WILL have videos of the fight up on Youtube and Facebook! Peace!