Wow. Find only to lose. If it comes back it shows, and that's how you know.

A long night of games, friends, and surprise. Let's not discuss the surprise, except know that it was a good one. I wonder what is to come of that. On another note, we played DOA3 like crazy tonight. Halo 2 not so much. Fight Night: Round 2 even less. Finally finished Kingdom Hearts, but came away thoroughly unimpressed. :( Guess I'll have to go back and get that Ultima Weapon. And complete the Hades Time Trial. And beat Kurt Zisa. And melt that Ice Titan. And obliterate Sephiroth. I'm still thinking about that surprise... I wonder if she's thinking about me?

I think it's called "The Great Urban Adventure Race"? I'm Hannah's partner for it this upcoming Saturday. Should be interesting if I don't die, running around like that. Means I have to run to build my endurance again. A week should be enough. Will. TRAIN. August 8th nears. Focus your energy into something!

Haven't done this in a while. Maybe that's why things are changing. Simply because I do not express my anger productively enough or creatively enough. It's 1 AM and I've mostly been watching ER Season 3. Kingdom Hearts, sure, but I really haven't been playing that a whole lot. Just moderately. No point in getting headaches from playin' vid games too much like some oh-so-pathetic overweight 21-year-old high school dropout who works at Starbucks, plays Phantasy Star Online as much as he works (~ 30 hrs a week), and has the gall to belittle me. I so gotta get back into training. That's mostly what makes me... me. I need a mental challenge too; maybe I'll pickup that MCAT book at Barnes & Noble. God forbid me wishing that school could start a bit sooner. And after that one night's stand, I think the Big Guy Up There could do with slapping me around... not that I don't do that to myself already. Well, on top of everything I've accomplished and am now kinda taking for granted, I am pleased to say that I've successfully paid off over 2000 of the 2600 that I rang up on my credit card. That means sub-600 to go, which could quite feasibly mean another month. I'm probably gon' buy myself a new TV right after. Gawd, I need to train. Saikyo!

Fuck you demons, doughboys, and marshmallow girls out there.

Our Father who art in Heaven
Hallowed be Thy name
Thy kingdom come
Thy will be done on earth as it is in Heaven
Give us this day our daily bread
And forgive us our trespasses
As we forgive those who trespassed against us
And lead us not into temptation
But deliver us from evil
For Thine is the Kingdom, the Power, and the Glory
For ever and ever
Amen.

Should I start blogging again?

This is the end.

What is happening to me?

Good night.

Went to Club 511 with Omar, Sarah Robertson (pretty hawt), and Neal.
Celebrated Omar's b'day.
Got drunk.
Cockblocked.
Danced like hell with Sarah.
Felt bad about cockblocking.
Was told that the cockblocking was ok.
OK!
Tired as shit.
Going to bed now.

Thoughts and Musings at a Randalls deli...

Sunburned/Overtanned Lady #1
"Wow, this bitch needs to stop overtanning herself. You can just smell the smoke coming offa her."

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A dialogue:

Dumb lady: "Hi, I want a #6 [sandwich]."
Me: "Ok. 6 or 12 inch?"
DL: "6."
Me: "Ok." I proceed to cut the correct bread (multigrain). As I finish cutting it through the middle...
DL: "Oh, do you have wheat?" I pause, and...
Me: "Yes, ma'am." I proceed to cut another bread.
Me: "Did you want the meal deal, ma'am?" A meal deal is a medium drink and a bag of chips for a dollar more.
DL: "Yes." She goes off to look at the soda choices. Comes back and...
DL: "What size cup?" and goes for the soup cups. I interrupt and point...
Me: "Those cups, ma'am."
DL: "Oh, right right." She goes and gets the medium cup and goes to the soda machine. She comes back and...
DL: "Which one is the Nestea?" Well, goddammit I can't see it so what am I supposed to say?
Me: "Uhmmmmm." She goes, comes back and...
DL: "Only water's coming from it."

OY! The white switch underneath the tea gives you water!!!

I leave the sandwich and walk around to show her.
Pressing the correct switch, and thus showing her how to get tea, I start towards the sandwich table again.
DL: "Which switch do you press?"

You are the dumbest fuckin' lady alive.

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Sunburned/Overtanned Lady #2
"You have the complexion of an overused ash tray."

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Sunburned/Overtanned Lady #3
"Gosh, you tanning is like bleaching a pig... completely unneeded."

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"Shut the fuck up and let me finish explaining the answers to your dumbass questions!"

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"Is that your nose or a deformed strawberry?"

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"Why do super fat people buy like 10 pounds of meat and cheese? Oh wait. . ."

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Europeans
"What the hell is a 'poond'?"

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"Take off your dumbass sunglasses. Maybe then you can READ your deli choices instead of asking me to tell you all of them."

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"Why should I cut your deli meat so goddamned thin when you so clearly are not so thin. It would seem to me that you would need to get as much as you could into one bite instead of taking pecks."

Lumines = pwned
999,999
1 skin to go

Lumines = Addiction

Lumines = Therapy

Kokuryu has been coming out more than he should...

I am not a good person. I took advantage of a pornstar (phonetic) twice. Got drunk and drunker. Yeah I am not a good person.

Uhhhh...

Uhhh, I got an A in Chemistry, which means more than likely, I got straight A's this semester. I don't deserve an A, but rather a B, but I am not complaining. I think it's a blessing when the best thing you got going for you is your grades. But it's also sad too that you don't seem to have much else...

Every day, I feel myself becoming a darker person. The light and the darkness within me continually pull at each other, fighting for dominance, in a neverending match of tug o' war. I can see what I am becoming and I fear it. Even now, I feel something growing in the pit of my stomach, that makes me hate, and drives me to become more powerful than I've ever been. I hold it back in all the time, knowing that strength and aggression aren't always the means to an end. But I hate limiting myself for the sake of others. I hate stopping a power punch from crushing through a head because I am concerned for the other's well-being. I hate catering to stupid people who don't know of their own stupidity. I hate not being what I want to be. I just want to kill something. God, I don't know what to do anymore. It's as if my life is not my own, and though I pray to You every day, I can't stop myself from feeling this way. I shudder as I feel my physical potential ripple through me and I am truly afraid. I want to know it, but I am scared it will consume me. Please God, hear me. Pacify my soul. I am not strong enough to bear your heavy gifts.

Happy Birthday Alex!

You are your own Dragon.

Now today...

I did ridiculously well on the cumulative Chem test, and I didn't even study a fifth of how much I studied for the last test, on which I got a non-curved 76. What the hell is up with that? I played video games and watched kickboxing last night. Hardly any studyin'. Maybe that's what I needed, a release.

New today!

The Legend of Zorro

Happy Birthday Pop!