Dear Jess,
I love you. I have loved you for the past ~4 years. There is no other woman who I have wanted so very badly. The thing is: I never win at love. And now, now that I've never ever wanted any woman so badly, I know I won't win this.
I know you have trust issues, but I want you, issues and all. Everything about you. I just don't know what else I can do to let you know that, regardless of my past with women, I only want you. You can trust me. I want that challenge. I would never leave you.
I was there for you before you became a nurse.
I was there for you when you needed to talk for 10 hours on the phone.
I was there for you... and I always will be.
If you ever find this, please know that I love you and that I always will.
And if you need to find me...
Well, I'm sure you will.
Nick
