"If I don't keep the pressure up.. find time to grieve. I can't let myself grieve. Grief is the enemy. There's no room for grief. Grief turns into acceptance. Forgiveness. Grief forgives what can never be forgiven. Never."
"You learn to speak by speaking, study by studying, work by working; in the same way you learn to love by loving."
"People who are unable to motivate themselves must be content with mediocrity, no matter how impressive their other talents."
"Every great dream begins with a dreamer. Always remember, you have within you the strength, the patience, and the passion to reach for the stars... to change the world."
"Your talent is God's gift to you. What you do with it is your gift back to God."
"What doesn't kill you makes you stronger."
"If you want redemption, Clark... it lies in the very next decision you make. Make it as a man... and make it right."
"Don't look back admiringly at your own footprints. It's all lost unless this next step is truly exceptional."
"The virtuous spirit has no need for thanks or approval, only the conviction that what has been done is right."
"We carry the most dangerous weapon in the world inside these thick little skulls of ours."
"There's plenty of time to sleep when you're dead. "
"Retirement is over."

Today in the ER...

Got a look at Heather's ex. Yeah, that was... whatever.

Helped label a LOT of tubes. Helped Joel.

Helped an African American lady with her feverish baby in getting a cool towel.

Spoke Spanish to a lady and son while filling out their registration. Impressed myself.

Laughed when a black lady told me that her son had put Play-Doh in his ears.

Smiled at the cute little blonde girl who smiled shyly at me, and laughed when her mom motioned to her other child, a son, and said: "Uh yeah. My son just swallowed a penny."

:)

Good times.

I seek...

... The complete mastery of myself.

Temptation

Most men would rather never be tempted, be it by a temptress, drugs, alcohol, money, fame, whatever, for fear of giving in. But let's just stick to lustful temptation for the sake of where I am going with this. I admittedly have a poor, poor track record, but I've never cheated on a girlfriend, let alone a wife.

I welcome the temptress, and all that she offers, so that when I walk away from her, 100% in control of myself and my being, I can go to my girlfriend, wife, and say:

"That's how much I love you."

I have my own problems, and I need to face them now.

Weights...

... are building my body, but almost... too fast! The changes already occurring within my body are scary and already visible. My body feels weird. I need to run more too and slim it down. But I hurt my foot.

She was just another face.

I am mostly Chinese...

... But my fighting style, though it may have Chinese system components, really doesn't resemble Chinese martial arts.

We may have to change that.

I hate Lost Odyssey

It has one of the coolest and seamless openings ever, and my initial thoughts were: "There is no way this game gets lower than an A."

Things change. After putting in over 45 hours, I give it a B-. It is TEDIOUS. Combat is slow. Spells are ineffectual. Loading times are rather frequent.

I was at the very end, and opted not to finish the game. Games should not be chores to play. Lost Odyssey is a chore. Eff that.

I put it up on Amazon.com if anyone wants to buy it. Just lemme know. Ugh.

It's as if I try to influence and take control of other people's lives, but want nothing to do with my own! It's time for me to take control of my own life. I can't change other people, but I can change myself. I want to save lives. People aren't listening to me now, when they should, and even when I'm proven right in things today, I am still not trusted or followed, not even by my closest friends.

Bottom line, I need to change myself, and so I will. Furthermore, I will no longer offer advice. The things I speak to them are perfectly sound and true, but go unfollowed, unheeded. Almost purposely. So to that, I say farewell. Get by on your own accounts BY your own accounts. You'll have no real input from me.

I have my own problems, and I need to face them now.

The fight is everything.

To live is to fight, to fight is to live!