I don't like being told that I will fail...

Fuck you all who talked crap about me. Fuck those of you who don't believe in me. And great big FUCK YOU to the forces that bring me down.

Goin' back up!

I finished the UT app. Just need to study for math test tomorrow. Tekken 5 is the shit. I only need to train to keep myself up. I'm tired of people telling me how bad their lives are. At least you're alive MOTHERFUCKERS! I need to stop cussing. I'm gon' try for real to cut it down at least. Karma's coming through...

Oh yeah! I MUST MENTION... that Viviane's brother Bryant wants to kick my ass because he's jealous of me... jealous that Suli is attracted to me and not to him. Tough rocks, pal. Grow a pair.

SAIKYO!

I am in awe of Tekken 5...

'Nuff said.

I'd forgotten what it was like to be regarded as smart...

In chem, people are askin' to study with me, thanks to Dr. Chari's rather constant singling me out in class. I'm like "We'll see" *rolls eyes*. It's flattering, but I'm not sure how much I want to help all these other people, save David. And maybe Samantha, yet another cute redhead.

Tekken 5 is out today.
Thanks to Neal's playtesting, Virtual-On Marz sucks ass, so I'm gon' turn that sucker in to EB.
GoldenEye is still a badass movie.

I wish I could fly...

... just take off one day for the sun.
And never come back.

Feelin' tired...

... but I can't rest yet.
Still got shit to do...

Hair

My hair can only be really long, or really short.
If it's in between, I look like a moron.
When it was long, I was called Bruce Lee.
When it was short, I was called Jet Li.
I can't escape the stereotypes (nor do I really want to).
But, it IS cheaper to let it grow long.
So, Bruce is coming back.

Self-cultivation

Besides the Big Guy up there and family, self-cultivation is the only thing keeping me going. I trained the hell out of myself yesterday, and I'm feelin' it today. I was thinkin' throughout: "You're NUTS!" And maybe I am. Maybe the pursuit of power is going to my head.

God, family, and self-cultivation.

SAIKYO!

Gawd, I'm so GOKU...

... or just a pig.
I noted what all I ate today for the first time ever. Here.

From this day on...

I dedicate my life to God, family, and self-cultivation.

I have 7 days...

Gotta get my shit done. Get a good night's sleep tonight/today whatever. Do 1 or 2 math assignments and read before I go to class. In the break, do more math... maybe add on to essays. Better print 'em out now. OK.

Watch Ong Bak and chill. Last bit of chillin' I'm gon' do for a few days.

SAIKYO!

Meh...

I watched Street Fighter Alpha last night/this morning with the English dub. It's not that bad. But I couldn't help but feel (once again) like Ryu. Getting stronger, physically and mentally, and further self-cultivation are the only things keeping me going. I wonder when I'll go too far. Will I be able to pull myself back?

Going off on a tangent... Will I be alone? Because I sure as hell won't settle. We shall see. Heheheh, but still I'm pretty sure of this one... even if...

It's an even smaller world than the small world...

Kelly "Knuckleless" Nelms's brother trained with me once. Quite funny.

GOD DAMN IT'S A SMALL WORLD!

God forgive me. I need to stop saying that so much.

We some RESOURCEFUL MUTHAFUCKAS

'Nuff
said.

We're all a bunch of thieves...

I STOLE - whatever the hell I wanted
I AM - The Dragon
I MISS - being in mutual love with a girl
I HEAR - the bells of success and the drums of impending failure
I SMELL - bad because I just trained my ass off
I CRAVE - romantic love.
I WORRY - about my family, about failing
I REGRET - Chicago
I LOVE - God, myself, and my family.
I AM ALWAYS - making others smile :) too
I SING - whenever and whatever I want.
I CAN'T STAND - Demons who masquerade as angels
I LIKE - training.
I LISTEN - To Anyone Who Needs An Ear.
I CAN BE FOUND - whenever I call from someone else's cell fone
I NEED - God.
I KNOW THAT - I am gifted by God
I HOPE - to be the greatest success that I can be
I WANT - to win
I WISH - my life to be guided by God
I CRY - when I am acting.
I FELL - 3 years ago.
I NEVER - will fail again.
I BELIEVE - in God, my family, and in myself.

***Family includes my brothers and sisters.

Girl: I wanna cuddle
SANSHORYU: I don't know how to do that anymore.

Neal's gotten me wanting to play Ninja Gaiden and Viewtiful Joe again. Maybe I'll get VJ2.

1000 Words

By Koda Kumi

Kimi no kotoba wa
Yume no yasashisa kana?
Uso wo zenbu
Oikakushitetu
Zurui yo ne

Tabidatsu kimi ni
Sameta senaka misete
Kiiteita yo
Hitori tatakau no?
Zurui yo ne

"Kaettekuru kara"
Oikoshiteyuku kimi no koe
Iji hatte
Tsuyoi furi
Toki wo modoshite
Sakebeba yokaata?
Ikanai de to namida koboshitara?
Ima wa dekiru
Donna koto mo

Ienakatta
1000 no kotoba wo
Haruka na
Kimi no senakaa ni okuru yo
Tsubasai kaete

Ienakatta
1000 no kotoba wa
Kizutsuita
Kimi no senaka ni yorisoi
Dakishimeru

Yume no tsuduki wa
Kimi wo omoinagara
Ano hi no koto
Wasureta furishite
Zurui yo ne

"Tegami wo kaku kara"
Shisen sorashita kimi no koe
Iji haate
Tsuyoi furi
Toki wo modoshite
Okoreba yokatta?
Matenai yo to kata wo otoshitara?
Ima wa dekiru
Donna koto mo

Kikoeteru?
1000 no kotoba wo
Mienai
Kimi no senaka ni okuru yo
Tsubasa ni kaete

Kikoeteru?
1000 no kotoba wa
Tsukareta
Kimi no senakaa ni yorisoi
Dakishimeru

Ienakatta
1000 no kotoba wo
Lalala...
Kimi no senakaa ni okuru yo
Tsubaksa ni kaete

Kikoeteru?
1000 no kotoba wa
Lalalala..
Kimi no senaka ni yorisoi
Lalalalala...

Review of: Constantine

Badass.
8/10

It's always darkest before dawn.

God, I pray for Mattie's mom, who's recovering from cancer. May her life be long and well-lived. She has so much yet to see, including but not just her kids.

What a wasted night...

All I've done since I've gotten home was sit in front of this computer, finagling with Freedom Force so that I could play as Superman. And after all this work, I have nothing to show for it because the game doesn't strike me as being as fun as it used to be. I only hope that the sequel (out the end of this month) is worth it.

I'm going to go off on a ramble about Treasure because it seems to be the only thing (besides how I'm procrastinating about UT and the current workload I have left to do for Tomball and how Pop made me yell at him for the first time in ages) on my mind right now.

As far as I know, this girl is interested in me. For all y'all who're in the dark, Treasure is the beautiful girl in my IPC class who's more beautiful when she doesn't smile rather than when she does.

Things I know about her:
- Puts schnapps in her coffee
- Is a bartender.
- Has dated (at least 2) Asians
- Is 20 years old
- Lives in the vicinity of 2920 and Dowdell.
- ^ means she went to Klein Oak.
- Essentially supports her mom.
- Likes to wear pink.
- Mentions her exes in class, much like Dawn.
- Flirts with me all the time in class.
- Smells good; that'll make for some good hair-smelling sessions ;-)

I have no fuckin' clue whether or not she gave me that wrong number on purpose. Maybe it's payback for my little comment to her (read past entry). Maybe she's just flirtatious. Then again, she is a bartender.
Anyway, I asked her for her number and she was super-flirtatious about it, to the point where it was just cute, and I hate using the word "cute" except for when describing a mildy attractive girl. <<< BAD RUN-ON. Deal w/ it.
I call it and there's the "Beep beep beep beep, we're sorry, the number you have called cannot be completed as dialed. Please hang up and try again..."
BAH!
BULLSHIT!
Been talkin' to everyone about this... Most don't think she'd give the wrong number to a guy she sees every time they're in class. YARGH.
Fuck it. Nothin' I can do about it right now.
I do know one thing though: Whoever those Asians she dated were, ain't no one as perfect an Asian as me.

I gots this left to do for Saturday:
Finish Essay A
Do more of Essay E - hope to finish both w/in 2 days
Do the Chem labs
Do the Math HW
Do SOME of the Creative Writing bullshit, once I figure out what it is.
Do my mountains of laundry.
Train.
Watch Spirited Away.

Not a good day. NOT. A. GOOD. DAY. Need to see a fukkin' movie. Maybe I coulda if I'd gotten the right NUMBER!!!

FOCK!!!

JUST A GODDAMN (GFM) FRUSTRATING DAY!

I just don't know anymore...

But I'm sure that I have work to do.

Smallville episode review: "Krypto"

superbananaman87: how was smallville
SANSHORYU: good
SANSHORYU: I love the Clark and Lois dynamic
SANSHORYU: and how Chloe knows Clark's secret but Clark doesn't know she knows

Rating: 7/10
Other notes: It's too early for the Lois 'n' Clark tiffs, but they're great! And Lois is hawwwt! They also cheaped out on the special FX, as there were no shots of the dog really exhibiting any super strength. Example: shot of dog chained to tractor, cut to Clark hearing LOUD scraping metallic noises, cut to Clark coming back out to see that the trailer had moved a good 30 feet and into the Kent garden. Cheap. Maybe the episode warrants a 6. Loved the dog though, later named "Shelby," not "Krypto" (how original, Clark [for the latter name]).

Happy Singles' Awareness Day!

With emphasis on "Singles" because I so blew it today.

Since y'all are sooo calling bullshit on the last post, Jack and I will recount the night.

So we get to 6th street with Jakku's roomies. And we go to one of the many bars there.
I buy a shot of 151 (Jack: "FUCK YOU FOR THAT! FUCK YOU FOR THAT!") for the both of us. Even now, we both can still taste it (Jack: "FUCK YOU FUCK YOU!"). He has a beer or three and I have a beer and a half. Needless to say, we're fucked up.

Lotsa lotsa of fine lookin' girls and some fugly looking dogs too.

QUOTES OF THE NIGHT:
"Ew, I just stepped on girl's underwear!" I DID. NO JOKE... IT WAS PINK!

We get bored, so Jack 'n' I leave the group and start back for the house. Along the way, we come across a statue holding its penis. Yikes. And later, we find two chalkboards in the open, complete with chalk and erasers. We draw 3 things: Superman S shield, the San symbol, and a penis with great big BALLS. Pix to come soon, hopefully.

Yeah I'm tired. Jack's tired, too.
So when we get back to the house, he freaks about how my car might get towed. Reasonable fear, so we move the car. I try to parallel park, but that don't work. So Jack does it, after he rolls down the driver window. Y'see, the driver window has a problem: it doesn't go back up easily. We spend about half an hour trying to close the damn window. We get it shut, and now we're here. Laughin'. What a night.

6th Street

Not much to say.

Review of Smallville: "Recruit"

Opens with Lois (hawwwwt!) in a drinking game with two football jocks. One bowls out. The other falls over soon after. Woo! Lois is a champ!

Jock #2 follows Lois as she's struggling to stay sober ("...the world is NOT spinning around...").

"Let's play a game we both win?" He says. Dumbass. She shuts him down (hawwwt!). Moron then puts his hand on her only to meet some redirection and a nice snappy front push kick to the gut. Lois stands over him (hawwwt!).

Cops later find the guy paralyzed and arrest Lois. D'oh. Some kick!

Then the whole "Save Me" by Remo Zero credits. Blah, every show has it.

Chloe knows Clark's secret and continuously clues him in that she knows. Guess he's just really clueless. Moron.

Clark gets recruited by the Metropolis University Bulldogs, full scholarship, the works. Some goofball with long hair...

MEH FUCK IT. I SAID WHEN I WANNA, but I REALLY DON'T WANNA RIGHT NOW! As in... review this episode. Too much f'n effort.

Episode gets 8/10 because it deals with Clark taking responsibility for his powers and quitting football, and because the exchange with Lois and Clark (hmmmm, Lois and Clark) was just great. I can already see a "Lois and Clark" (for morons, read: a la Lois and Clark TV show) scenario forming. I still think it was too early to introduce Lois, but whatever. But yeah, the last conversation Lois and Clark had in this episode was priceless.

"I would love to take you out this weekend...

... but I won't be here."
~what I said to Treasure~

Alice has the greatest, most perfect ass ever. But that has nothing to do with our conversation.

Me: So, how's the boyfriend?
Alice: He's... alright.
Me: You don't sound too enthusiastic about him. You're definitely not lavishing praise onto him.
Alice: I don't do that with anybody.
Me: I know who you would be really happy with though...
Alice: Who?
Me: Me.
Alice: That's probably right.

!

This the #1 anticipated movie this year!!!

Watch the trailer!
Following closely are Star Wars Episode III: Revenge of the Sith and Unleashed (in Europe, "Danny the Dog")...

I like this picture and I don't like this picture...

I like how it accentuates how fast I am, but I don't like how it accentuates my butt.

If you play Halo 2...

... and you SUCK at using certain weapons i.e. SNIPER RIFLE...
... DON'T FUCKIN' HOG THE DAMN WEAPON IF YOU FUCKING SUCK AT IT! IN FACT, DON'T EVEN USE IT!

Random Notes:

- I want a Sony PSP
- Lab Station 13 can't seem to keep from breakin' glass (David 'n' me, and Kelly and whoever her partner is)
- Treasure Mills <--- guess who/what that is.
- Hannah, thanks for coming yesterday (Wednesday). Had you not come, I wouldn't have trained or exercised at all that day.
- I want Fight Night Round 2, Splinter Cell: Chaos Theory, Tekken 5; all come out within 2 months.
- I want a girlfriend.
- I wish my Chemistry teacher would give us printed lab assignments and not give us lab activities by word of mouth.
- I wish my Creative Writing teacher was a teacher.
- I wish dumb fuckers at Tomball would let me take Calculus.
- I wish I could find that damn guitar theme from Metal Gear Solid 3.
- I wish Eli would tell me why he dropped.
- I wish I didn't hate work.
- I wish for a lot of things.

FUCK THAT! I better make things happen! FOCKERS!

Natalie Goldberg: "But, Roshi, it is so lonely."
Katagiri Roshi: "Is there anything wrong with loneliness?"
Natalie Goldberg: "No, I guess not."

---

Natalie Goldberg: " But, Roshi, you have sentenced me to such loneliness. Writing is very lonely."
Katagiri Roshi: "Anything you do deeply is very lonely. There are many Zen students here, but the ones that are going deep are very lonely."
Natalie Goldberg: "Are you lonely?"
Katagiri Roshi: "Of course. But I do not let it toss me away. It is just loneliness."

Smallville episode review: "Pariah"

I've decided to start reviewing Smallville as I feel like it. Spoilers present, so read at your own risk.

Opening with Chloe and Lois (hawt) doin' karaoke. I hate karaoke. And I hate that song "I love rock 'n' roll." But anyway, Clark and Alicia (Sarah Carter, also hawt) walk in and everything goes dead silent. Keep in mind that Alicia is an attempted murderer and that Clark's dating her. Well it can't be helped that everyone stares. A really really great uncomfortable silence. It was just fantastic.
Poor Alicia gets fingered at for attempted murders on Lana and Jason, because the would-be murderer somehow gets in and out without a trace. Woohoo! I know the chick is/was nuts, but she's really sweet. And really really insecure. I was thinking to myself: "Please don't let it be her."
Later on it became: "It can't be her. It's a sure-fire red herring."
And I was right. Psycho named Tim who has the hots for Lois (HAWWWT) is responsible. His powers are similar, except he dissipates into molecules that can fly around. Wonder what he's made of. He uppercuts Clark pretty good. POW!
Gettin' ahead of myself though.
So back to Alicia... Everyone thinks she's guilty. Including Clark. Oh well.
But then...























TIM KILLS HER! Bastard HANGS HER from her barn door!!! MOTHERFUCKER!

Lois has it figured out, having gone on a date with Tim (don't ask) and runs in to tell Clark as poor Clarkie finds Alicia's body (she was hawwwt :( ).

Clark somehow gets away from Lois to confront Tim. OK fight, but Clark really needs to punch someone really hard some time. He's always the one who gets punched. Anyway, it ends with Clark nearly strangling Tim.
I'm thinkin': "BREAK HIM! BREAK HIM!!!"
*sigh* Of course you know that won't happen, but they have to bring Lois in to stop him.

Let's also not forget that...


















CHLOE KNOWS CLARK'S SECRET! Thank Alicia for that. Chloe sees Clark catch a car and speed (read: run impossibly-for-a-human fast) off.

Other notes: They really need to jazz up Clark's wardrobe. Tonight, I really noticed that he's almost always wearin' the same red and white checked flannel and the navy blue jacket, or the blue T-shirt with the red (!!!; as in capelike) jacket. Who the hell wears a bright red jacket? Let's not fix him to the Superman stereotype too soon! Well, y'know what I mean... yeah, ok. And get a f*n haircut, Clark! Long hair looks good on me, not you!

Review: 8/10
Much better'n the last episode. However, I will miss Sarah Carter in this series.
Foto fo' yu:

Damn Chemistry

HUUUGE write ups for labs. I wanna strangle someone. WHY WHY WHY?