Retirement is over.

So I was flippin' thru the channels and found the "Double Dragon" movie...

... and I was amazed at how the production sets and values just rival those of the Power Rangers TV shows.

The Transformers SCORE, not soundtrack...

... is excellent. I couldn't give a rat's ass about all the different music by whoever artists, but Steve Jablonsky's score is most excellent.

Hypotheses Biological

I hypothesize that a certain degree of development is random. Penetrance accounts for the fact that identical genetic information between a plural will often result in different phenotypes. If this is so, then the only way to get 'desired' characteristics is to repeatedly express the same template in multiple subjects, separating those that are desired.

I also hypothesize that the cure to cancer is within the body itself. I take for example, the repair of thymine dimer mutations within DNA.
From Wikipedia: " Excision repair enzymes and the DNA repair system can often recognize and repair this type of damage by the large kink in the DNA that it causes. In many organisms (excluding placental mammals such as humans), DNA photolyases can repair the damage directly by cleaving the dimer.
Unrepaired or mis-repaired thymine dimers and the resultant mutations can contribute to the development of skin cancers."

The body does it itself. As such mutations can cause cancer, then hypothetically, the cure for cancer can be found within the body itself. If something is not right, the body's own machinery must be able to fix it. If not, I am 100% positive that enzymes can be engineered to hunt down specific mutations to correct. However, as there are many types of mutations, it will conceivably take a while to find ways, enzymatic or otherwise, to fix the different mutations in DNA. However, as oncogenes are often, if not always, the epicenter from which cancer begins, those are the points where we need to be looking.

It's been a long time...

... and the ghost of you and me remains.
Everyday.

I think I have tried nigh-everything possible to get you out of my mind.

To let go.

To move on.

And it angers me that I can't.

Am I so weak that I can't get over you?

While I'd love to say "Hell no," I'm not there yet.

It's incredibly difficult for me.

Because frankly, I still love you.

And I was so true to it.

And am still true to it.

It's been months since I've talked to you.

I've seen you here and there, but made no point to get your attention.

All for "getting over it."

But I can't.

It's time for Divine Intervention, for God to help me, because no matter what I do to move on from the ghost of you and me, I'm failing.

God, please help me.

Jeeeeeeeebus Superman...

Let's talk about an influx of Superman.
In the past few weeks, I've seen a bunch of different ANIMATED versions of Superman on TV and DVD.
But let's start from the top...














Superman in Superman: The Animated Series (The best in my opinion)
























Superman in Justice League / Justice League Unlimited What's the deal with the squint?











Superman in Superman: Doomsday
Pretty awesome, but I don't like them cheekbones











The Supermen in Legion of Superheroes

I dunno what to make of the left. It's kinda love/hate... (He's a fighting-bred clone)

The one on the right is supposed to be a younger version of the man, which I guess works. Head's a little big, but in other scenes I've seen, the body's too big.











And finally, the new Superman version that debuted in The Batman.
Kinda pretty boy looking. The curl's kinda big, and I don't like the color scheme (in the daytime scenes too), but I DO kinda like how the cape drapes on his shoulders. And the S, is very consistently drawn very well. I like.

Gettin' back to where I used to be...

My windowsill is becoming a fruit fly and gnat graveyard...

My roommate's cool, but he leaves the windows open. And uninvited flies invite themselves in...

Batman: The Animated Series: Original versus Redesign

I must say that the original series was dynamic and colorful, but sometimes, Batman just seemed fat.

Though I DO like the redesigns of many of the characters in the redesigned series, including Batman himself, I find myself sometimes missing the blue on Batman. But overall, the redesign of Batman is better with no yellow.

I like the stylistic choices made for the new Robin, the young Tim Drake, though the Robin design in the original series will always be a classic.

Other redesigned characters, like Baby Doll, aren't nearly as flamboyant, dynamic, or maniacal as she was in the original series. Killer Croc's redesign, however, looks way more kickass than the original. Catwoman's redesign sucks. The original was way sexier. The Joker looked less menacing in the redesign, but both are great, the old version being really scary, and the redesign being funnily and pleasantly comedic. It is of note that Joker underwent a third redesign, used in Batman Beyond: Return of the Joker and Justice League, and it was downright SCARY AS HELL.

The redesign looks just sterile sometimes though, kinda plain. On the other hand, it looks more consistent than the original.

On the writing side, both had some of the most fantastic stories written...

With some reorganizing, this rant could probably have been paragraphed better, but I won't bother. This is a blog.

End rant.

What the hell have I been thinking? What the hell is wrong with me? SERIOUSLY...

God, HELP ME PLEASE.

On another note, Bourne would so totally kick Bond's ass...

Flippin' through and turned to Patch Adams for a bit...

There's that patient in room 305, who's sleeping all the time because he's in pain and he's terminal...

There's plenty of time to sleep when you're dead.

So I finished "Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows"...

... and I must say that it's going to be a damn expensive movie.

God, I need strength...

My workload is going to kill me unless You are there with me.

Thanks, Channing

Obstacles are put in your way to see if what you want is really worth fighting for.

"The virtuous spirit has no need for thanks or approval, only the conviction that what has been done is right."

It is too easy to make myself train physically, but a much greater challenge to train myself mentally. And therefore, the latter is clearly the more worthwhile.

Today, I came to a realization...

If I don't exercise/train, I don't feel right for the whole day until I do.

Bought a cheap $4 wooden boomerang...

... and it sucked.

This is post # 400

The number 4 is bad...
And thus my news is.
I've never paced around, feeling so helpless.
My heart is breaking.

But I can only help by setting the example that is so very much needed.

The root of my problem is calculus...

Therefore, I must review calculus.

Thank you, Lord. I know that perhaps I shouldn't be doing so, but please understand...
My ego took a huge blow after the leech.
But this one surpasses the leech, and restored my confidence.
So thank you.
I realize nothing needs to happen now, but if it does, I wouldn't stop it.
And at the same time, my self-development must still continue.
Thank you.

AND...

it happened.
Damn it all.

Everything happens for a reason...

If it should've happened, it would've.
Guess Someone Up There is tellin' me that it wasn't time or it wasn't right.

So I was surfin' porn websites...

... and it really made me wonder how they make money if most people simply upload the sets to file hosting sites..?

Let every day be one that I can improve on myself just a little bit more...

Gross as it may be assumed to be...

I want to try the "Hot and Spicy" variety of Spam.

We carry the most dangerous weapon in the world inside these thick little skulls of ours.

God gives you chores...

... to:
(1) Take your mind off of depressing things
(2) Pontificate
(3) Give you a way to give back

Because I hate the DPS...

... and its long lines...
... and because I have since discovered that you can renew your license online...
... my license picture from senior year of high school (bleached) will probably remain on my license for the rest of my life.

Almost died yesterday...

... was very lucky.
Got lost going to HBU from I45. Fine. Figured it out.
On 610 West, in the middle of the street was an old car (made of metal vs fiberglass or whatever) that had stopped in the center lane. I think at least 3 tires out, so THAT was probably the reason.
Anyway, I was in the center lane. Saw it, quickly signalled left and moved left.
The big white truck behind me... not so lucky.
It PLOWED into that deadweight car, knocking it over a lane, the truck itself spinning 3-4 lanes over in the other direction. Pieces flew, and at least 3 other cars sustained damage.
Saw it all in my rearview mirrow.
Like something out of a movie.
I marveled at my reflexes.
Then I quickly thanked God.

So yeah, Rampage won...

... and I was right. But I did see it going either way. But damn, Chuck was sloppy.

Training is fun. Mo and I got into the mitt feeding. 'twas very badass. She knocked me with a right hook into the pad right in front of my solar plexus and drummed it. Sucked. But I was so happy.

Spider. We must play, team.

I still think about her. What else can I do to expunge her from my mind? In retrospect, it happened with Ashley too. Gawd, I'm a fool.

July 4th will be... interesting. A test of Superman's mettle and integrity. Integrity? Me? Y'know... there was a time that I wouldn't have scoffed at it.

I have a lot to answer for. And a lot to pay for. And I'll do my best.

Reading and studying are taking place... outside of classes.

Time to sharpen every aspect.

The Tudors is an awesome show. But Henry VIII was a fat bastard... not a skinny, somewhat-muscled, androgenously-featured man of short stature. Where's Deadwood?

And still yet... I can't help but think (hope?) that...

And let's not forget: Spread positive karma.

Summer of Threes

Spider-Man 3
Shrek the Third
Pirates of the Caribbean: At World's End
Ocean's 13
Rush Hour 3
The Bourne Ultimatum

Make it happen...

Things...

122
My lighter needs a new flint, or else will need its guts replaced.
Kingdom Come - Superman returns
Training
Good things don't happen, you have to make them happen.
Do your best, God does the rest.
Focus
My return
3

MK vs SF 3 : Akuma vs Chameleon

Link (let it load)

Omae wa mō shindeiru

"Don't look back admiringly at your own footprints. It's all lost unless this next step is truly exceptional."

De la Hoya vs Mayweather

I wanted Oscar to win, but he didn't earn it. *sigh*
However, Mayweather did not completely dominate, and I think that was a rather bad showing for the #1 "pound for pound" boxer against an older man (de la Hoya).

Jennifer Connelly

is one of the most attractive women I've ever seen in my life. While definitely pretty, she's not the most gorgeous, but the way she talks, the way she looks at who she's talking to, the way she handles herself... I hope I meet someone like her one day.

I have mental blocks...

... and they are inhibiting me.
Need to figure out how to remove them...

3 great stories of the weekend...

Friday
Mo and I decide to make garlic bread. Mistakenly, we think that 5 cloves of garlic is 5 bulbs. Oops. Like fire. Not bad tho.

Saturday
UFC 70. We are bummed and outraged that Cro Cop gets knocked the FUCK out by his opponent, Gabriel Gonzaga, who used a flippin' ROUNDHOUSE KICK to the head! He took Cro Cop's only move and cracked him with it, right on the button. The way Cro Cop fell on his right leg was almost as bad as the crunch to the noggin that he endured. Look for it on YouTube. I'm sure someone has it somewhere.

Sunday
Crawfish dinner party for Neal's birthday, which is actually today. Don't know what the hell was up, but I was sweating like I've never sweated before. It was just coming down like a super leaky faucet. Everyone made fun of me, but it was good. :) Maybe it was that I cleansed my palate with a lime prior to eating. The corn was just... super saturated with the infused spice, too.

So I'm awed by God...

This week, I've been wondering how I'm gon' eat while spending the least amount of money. I'm kinda broke, and there's not a whole lot of my stuff left in the fridge. Yesterday, I was ok. Today, Eric calls and takes me to lunch (for my birthday, late, but still!). Then tonight, my badass roomie cooks and offers me and I oblige. W00t! Praises be to God!

Then I wondered "What about love?" and then it got me thinkin', and then I stopped.
:-P

NOTHING

but my center.

I need to stop. Please God, help me stop. I need to become more than that. More than my aching weakness. More than the pathetic individual I am.
Less weak.
Less emotional.
Less human.

If you take a life, do you know what you'll give
Odds are, you won't like what it is
When the storm arrives, would you be seen with me
By the merciless eyes I've deceived

I've seen angels fall from blinding heights
But you yourself are nothing so divine
Just next in line

Arm yourself because no one else here will save you
The odds will betray you
And I will replace you
You can't deny the prize; it may never fulfill you
It longs to kill you
Are you willing to die

The coldest blood runs through my veins
You know my name

If you come inside, things will not be the same
When you return to my eyes
If you think you've won
You never saw me change
The game that we have been playing

I've seen diamonds cut through harder men
Than you yourself
But if you must pretend
You may meet your end

Arm yourself because no one else here will save you
The odds will betray you
And I will replace you
You can't deny the prize; it may never fulfill you
It longs to kill you
Are you willing to die

The coldest blood runs through my veins

Try to hide your hand
Forget how to feel
(Forget how to feel)
Life is gone with just a spin of the wheel
(A spin of the wheel)

Arm yourself because no one else here will save you
The odds will betray you
And I will replace you
You can't deny the prize; it may never fulfill you
It longs to kill you
Are you willing to die

The coldest blood runs through my veins
You know my name
(You know my name)
You know my name
(You know my name)
You know my name!
You know my name!
You know my name!

CNN: It's two weeks into spring, but it's beginning to look a lot like Christmas.

Haha, thought that was funny. But it IS cold as shit out there! Perhaps God is deciding to cleanse the US of its crap a bit. Wonder what's going to happen with the planned Easter egg hunt at Meyer Park later on today.

On another note, I'm bummed that GSP lost in his first title defense. Pulled a Carlos Newton. Suuuuuuck. GSP totally did NOT fight Serra the right way. You don't fight someone who weighs as much as you and is shorter'n you by 4 inches... by TRADING with him. That's like Rock fighting me. I'd die if I traded with Rock. AIN'T gonna happen.

*sigh*

So I'm gettin' ripped again. The smarts are comin' more easily. And I'm still feelin'... conflicted. Do I go one way that people know me best, or do I go back the other way that they also know, but fear more? A combination?

More importantly, no more complacency.

Things're pretty good...

... and they're only gon' get better.

Dreams can be cruel...

I dreamt of the leech.

The day before yesterday...

I really felt my power returning. That day, all I did was train. And I felt powerful again. And it was good.

The next day (technically yesterday), I decided to do more. I ran, and sprinted at the end. Now my thighs are sore. And it is good.

This time, I won't become complacent at my peak. I'll go beyond it.

Only question is... what happens then?

So, I have closed the book...

on love.

Katherine said I always say that, but I don't know if I could be any more serious. James Bond is a frikkin' ideal. THE ideal. A man who gets shit done... no one and nothing stopping him. Women are the casualties, but hey it's ok. I've been a pro at the game before, just need to ease back into it... "Bike riding" anyone?

The goals I need to achieve, added to my recent findings (Love is not an emotion; 'tis a brain function), and the ideal that I aspire to being... It all becomes clear. The cravings still hit kinda hard sometimes, but that's just weakness.

However, I do find myself checking up on someone more than I should, and no I'm not talking about the leech (the last one). And speakin' of the leech, I should thank her for reminding me of who I am, what I am, and what I was meant to do.

I need to find that killer instinct that I seem to have lost.

If y'all never hear from me again, it's because I died after my first Capoeira class...

Me: Virtua Tennis 3 demo is out.
Jack: I got owned by Venus
Me: I got owned by Sharapova

'tis a sad day when I'm reduced to using a cough drop as a breath mint

"I'mma play you better than you played you."

- Will Smith to Muhammad Ali, during the filming of Ali. Heheheh, that elicited a laugh.

Study shows why exercise boosts brainpower

• Exercise builds new brain cells in a region linked with memory and memory loss

• Mice grew new cells in area known to be affected in age-related memory decline

• MRIs showed similar cell growth in human brains after exercise

Exercise boosts brainpower by building new brain cells in a brain region linked with memory and memory loss, U.S. researchers reported Monday.
Tests on mice showed they grew new brain cells in a brain region called the dentate gyrus, a part of the hippocampus that is known to be affected in the age-related memory decline that begins around age 30 for most humans.
The researchers used magnetic resonance imaging scans to help document the process in mice -- and then used MRIs to look at the brains of people before and after exercise.
They found the same patterns, which suggests that people also grow new brain cells when they exercise.
"No previous research has systematically examined the different regions of the hippocampus and identified which region is most affected by exercise," Dr. Scott Small, a neurologist at Columbia University Medical Center in New York who led the study, said in a statement.
Writing in the Proceedings of the National Academy of Sciences, the researchers said they first tested mice.
Brain expert Fred Gage, of the Salk Institute in La Jolla, California, had shown that exercise can cause the development of new brain cells in the mouse equivalent of the dentate gyrus.
The teams worked together to find a way to measure this using MRI, by tracking cerebral blood volume.
"Once these findings were established in mice, we were interested in determining how exercise affects the hippocampal cerebral blood volume maps of humans," they wrote.
They of course could not dissect the brains of people to see if new neurons grew, but they could use MRI to have a peek.
They recruited 11 healthy adults and made them undergo a three-month aerobic exercise regimen.
They did MRIs of their brains before and after. They also measured the fitness of each volunteer by measuring oxygen volume before and after the training program.
Exercise generated blood flow to the dentate gyrus of the people, and the more fit a person got, the more blood flow the MRI detected, the researchers found.
"The remarkable similarities between the exercise-induced cerebral blood volume changes in the hippocampal formation of mice and humans suggest that the effect is mediated by similar mechanisms," they wrote.
"Our next step is to identify the exercise regimen that is most beneficial to improve cognition and reduce normal memory loss, so that physicians may be able to prescribe specific types of exercise to improve memory," Small said.

Let the body rebuilding continue...

300

No other movie should win next year for cinematography, art direction, special effects, and makeup.
Gerard Butler may be deserving of an Oscar nod.
David Wenham, who played Dilios, may be deserving of a supporting Oscar.

RANDY COUTURE!

You are one of my heroes!
Regained the UFC Heavyweight Title, outclassing and plain just pwning that shitty cheese 'champ' Tim Silvia!

I'm not falling in love again.

From CNN.com...
Close your eyes for a minute and envision all the romantic parts of the human body.

Her beautiful eyes. His strong shoulders. We'll stop there, but you go right ahead and think about all the body parts you want.

Bet you didn't think about the caudate and the ventral tegmental areas, did you?

These areas of the brain, while little known to most people, are helping scientists explain the physiological reasons behind why we feel what we feel when we fall in love.

By studying MRI brain scans of people newly in love, scientists are learning a lot about the science of love: Why love is so powerful, and why being rejected is so horribly painful.

In a group of experiments, Dr. Lucy Brown, a professor in the department of neurology and neuroscience at the Albert Einstein College of Medicine in New York, and her colleagues did MRI brain scans on college students who were in the throes of new love.

While being scanned, the students looked at a photo of their beloved. The scientists found that the caudate area of the brain -- which is involved in cravings -- became very active. Another area that lit up: the ventral tegmental, which produces dopamine, a powerful neurotransmitter that affects pleasure and motivation.

Dr. Brown said scientists believe that when you fall in love, the ventral tegmental floods the caudate with dopamine. The caudate then sends signals for more dopamine.

"The more dopamine you get, the more of a high you feel," Dr. Brown says.

Or as her colleague, Dr. Helen Fisher put it: When you fall in love, "exactly the same system becomes active as when you take cocaine. You can feel intense elation when you're in love. You can feel intense elation when you're high on cocaine."

Is it love -- or sex?
Scientists then wondered: Does a brain in love look much like a sexually stimulated brain? After all, we associate love and sex and sometimes confuse them.

The answer is: Brains in love and brains in lust don't look too much alike.

In studies when researchers showed erotic photos to people as they underwent brain scans, they found activity in the hypothalamus and amygdala areas of the brain. The hypothalamus controls drives like hunger and thirst and the amygdala handles arousal, among other things.

In the studies of people in love, "we didn't find activity in either," according to Dr. Fisher, an anthropologist and author of "Why We Love -- the Nature and Chemistry of Romantic Love."

"We now have physiological data that suggests there are different brain systems for sex and love," says Dr. Fisher.

At some point, the two do become linked. People in love have elevated levels of dopamine. Lots of dopamine, in turn, triggers the production of testosterone, which is responsible for the sex drive in both men and women.

This helps explain why falling in love can make someone all of a sudden seem sexy.

"Three weeks ago he was just another nice guy in the office and now everything about him is sexual," says Dr. Fisher.

All this research into sex and love got the researchers thinking: Most other mammals don't have this drive for romantic love and attachment. Why do humans have it? After all, we could easily propagate the species just with our sexual urges.

Dr. Fisher thinks it has a lot to do with how difficult it once was to raise children.

"Go back millions of years to the grasslands of Africa. A woman was carrying the equivalent of a 20-pound bowling ball in one arm, and sticks and rocks in another arm to protect herself in this dangerous environment. She needed a partner to help her. She couldn't do it alone," Dr. Fisher says.

And even today, when we have strollers and the environment isn't quite as dangerous, having a mate still helps. "There are women who raise a baby by themselves, but it's a lot harder," she says.

Male brain - female brain
In their work with the lovestruck, the scientists found brain differences between men and women.

"The men had quite a bit more activity in the brain region that integrates visual stimuli. This isn't surprising considering that men support the porn industry and women spend their lives trying to look good for men," says Dr. Fisher.

But she adds there's probably a more anthropological reason at work. Simply put: A man's evolutionary mission is to spread his seed. That won't work if he mates with an 80-year-old grandmother.

"Men have to be able to size up a woman visually to see if she can bear babies," says Dr. Fisher.

The women's brain activities were a bit more puzzling.

The scientists found that women in love had more activity than men in the areas of the brain that govern memories. Dr. Fisher theorizes that this is a "female mechanism for mate choice." There are no visual clues for whether a man is fertile, but if a woman really studies a man and remembers things about his behavior, she can try to determine whether he'd make a reliable mate and father.

Thus, if it sometimes seems like a woman remembers everything -- good and bad -- about a man, "it's not just her being picky. It's an old Darwinian evolutionary strategy."

What's love got to do with it?
In the end, Drs. Fisher and Brown say what they learned from lovers' brains is that romantic love isn't really an emotion -- it's a drive that's based deep within our brains, right alongside our urges to find food and water.

"This helps explain why we do crazy things for love," says Dr. Brown. "Why did Edward VIII give up the throne for Wallis Simpson? The systems that are built into us to find food and water are the things that were also active when he renounced the throne of England."

Now their research is centered on the flip side of love. They've recruited college students who'd just been rejected by their sweethearts. Again, the scientists performed MRI's while these students looked at photos of the objects of their affection.

This time, the results were different, Dr. Brown says. The insular cortex, the part of the brain that experiences physical pain, became very active.

"People came out of the machine crying," she said. "We won't be doing that experiment again for a long time."

Why would I take part in this, KNOWING the effect?
I'm not falling in love again.

I give up to gain.

Now, it's time to go back to the basics.
Everything will begin from there.

This Korean guy was on "Deal or No Deal" and unless this is all just a big publicity stunt, karma is REAL.

The guy's family came to the US with only 750 bucks and raised a family to success. Final numbers were $75, $750, and $750,000. The offer made to him was $211,000. The case he chose was case #8. Anyway, at the end of all that, he had 3 cases, and was debating on to choose to take the deal or to go on further. He wisely took the deal, and they looked at the case he WOULD have chosen to eliminate, which ended up having the $750,000.

Walked away with $211,000.

The case he had chosen, was #8, and had $750 in it. His parents were in attendence and they broke down crying. Everything had come full circle.

Wow. Just wow.

I KEEP trying...

God, PLEASE help me!

I'm in detox...

I read the article on CNN, on how being in love can be likened to taking cocaine.

Detox is tough!

Heh, she remembered my name.
I remembered hers.
Game on! :)

So, I was checkin' out my body this morning, and... for someone who doesn't work out or train like he used to, I look damn good! Wonder how much better I'd look with a decent amount of work...

Speakin' of work, the load is going to be insane next week. Try to get a head start tonight and this weekend.

I make no claims, but...

Anna Nicole Smith died today, not long after me making fun of her. :(
God forgive me please.

Completely unrelated, I have a good feeling about upcoming things having to do with women :-P

Right click and save, it's large, but it's the best Batman fan film EVER!

http://download.theforce.net/theater/batman-deadend/Batman_Dead_End_Full_Screen.mpg

Sofia Coppola

Shitty actress.
Great director?

I said my final goodbyes...

to her.
Goodbye.

And Anna Nicole Smith looks like a the poster child for Botox bitches. Hahaha!

I studied freaking hard...

... and I know I did bad.
I can't stop. Have to keep trying.

The Touch

You got the touch
You got the power

After all is said and done
You've never walked, you've never run,
You're a winner

You got the moves, you know the streets
Break the rules, take the heat
You're nobody's fool

You're at your best when when the goin' gets rough
You've been put to the test, but it's never enough

You got the touch
You got the power

When all hell's breakin' loose
You'll be riding the eye of the storm

You got the heart
You got the motion

You know that when things get too tough
You got the touch

You never bend, you never break
You seem to know just what it takes
You're a fighter

It's in the blood, it's in the will
It's in the mighty hands of steel
When you're standin' your ground

And you never get hit when your back's to the wall
Gonna fight to the end and you're takin' it all

You got the touch
You got the power

When all hell's breakin' loose
You'll be riding the eye of the storm

You got the heart
You got the motion

You know that when things get too tough
You got the touch

You're fightin' fire with fire
You know you got the touch

You're at your best when when the road gets rough
You've been put to the test, but it's never enough

You got the touch
You got the power

You got the touch
You got the power

I'm flying again. It's a little hard sometimes, but I'm doing ok. Seeing things get back to 'normal' is good. Wow I feel weird bloggin'. Used to be that I could just type whatever here, but today, I looked here and just thought about how empty it's honestly been here. I promise nothing, but I hope for more meaning in the posts to come.

Not quite at the point where I can look back and see that things were being set up for even better things, but I'd sure like to get there :)

But yes, my family and friends, 's for real...

Superman's back.

Yeah, I got my ass kicked...

Tomorrow will show how much work I have to do...

I'll still do my best.

Training

Friday:

1 lap around the house
light stretch

120 punch warmup

10 on each side of 3 different stretch kicks

2 X 3 min on the mitt punching, outboxer style

3 X 30 sec flutter kick (suuuuuuuuck)

Saturday:

Brief run

Stretch kick and punch

Went over TKD and anti-TKD strategies

TV vs Radio programs

It occurred to me that I listen to the TV as much as I watch it. I'll often multitask instead of spending 100% attention on the boob tube. I'll listen to what's being said while doing my pushups and stuff.

I guess if they had radio transcripts of shows, I might actually be inclined to tune in and listen. Maybe soap operas are best that way.

I realized...

... that if I get to know a girl, and fall in love with her, then it's going to be real love. And if it comes to that, she will never have to worry about me loving her above every other. She'll never have to worry about being loved ever again. My track record is bruised, but when I have loved, it was real, and it wasn't me making the choice to part.

Smile my friends, Superman's back.

Rocky Balboa:

"Let me tell you something you already know. The world ain't all sunshine and rainbows. It is a very mean and nasty place and it will beat you to your knees and keep you there permanently if you let it. You, me, or nobody is gonna hit as hard as life. But it ain't how hard you hit; it's about how hard you can get hit, and keep moving forward. How much you can take, and keep moving forward. That's how winning is done. Now, if you know what you're worth, then go out and get what you're worth. But you gotta be willing to take the hit, and not pointing fingers saying you ain't where you are because of him, or her, or anybody. Cowards do that and that ain't you. You're better than that!"

I still want that chance.

I see light...

It's just a crack, but light, nonetheless. Waiting for the Big Guy to pull the clouds apart as easily as I do with drapes. Smile.

"Clark, don't...

You blame yourself for Captain Marvel... for Magog and Kansas... for ten years that ended today.
Yes, you're angry. But in that anger, you're forgetting once more what humans feel.
What they fear.
They won't forgive you for this, Clark.

Forgive yourself.

Listen to me, Clark. Of all the things you can do... all your powers... the greatest has always been your instinctive knowledge of right... and wrong.
It was a gift of your own humanity. You never had to question your choices. In any situation... any crisis... you knew what to do.
But the minute you made the super more important than the man... the day you decided to turn your back on mankind... That completely cost you your instinct.

That took your judgment away.

Take it back.

If you want redemption, Clark... it lies in the very next decision you make.

Make it as a man... and make it right."

Rocky

If you didn't know, Sylvester Stallone was nominated for Best Actor in this film. He was likened to Marlon Brando and Robert De Niro. Wow!

Had he never done the sequels, nor ever starred in the hideous Rambo films, he might have had a much more illustrious acting career.

But then, wonder... would Rocky be as much of an American icon? Beating down the Muhammad Ali-esque Apollo Creed, the George Foreman-esque Clubber Lang, the Goliath in Ivan Drago... Would Rocky have endured?

But yeah, I don't give a shit about Rambo.

But the underdog, Rocky Balboa... that's always something to believe in.

I vow...

... to never be weak again.