The last fews days have been beautiful, and I've been taking notice. Since she and I are now forever apart, I've for some reason been taking solace in the days' beauty. Why are the days so beautiful now that she's gone? Why couldn't I have enjoyed them WITH her? *sigh* It's because I love her that I'm staying out of her life. I have to be stronger again. Karma comin' to bite me in the ass and God probably teaching me a lesson. Take care of me, Lord. I am weak.